
September 1 - The Muse, Nantucket, MA
Just like old times. 1996 was the first time I played the Muse. It
was with my old band "The Boogies." I was 21. Not a whole lot has changed
since then. The wolf still dances with the blond who has no face, on the
outside door around the back. Sand still sticks to corners and embeds itself
into cement like patches in the floor near the stage. Bubbles still drift
down like a waterfall into the dance floor and to their delicate demise.
People still play, and shoot pool, and smoke cigarettes and wear their bare
feet around and around and around. The same old salty dog still heckles the
band. The band house still looks the same, only neater, with a new rug and a
new lamp (this one with a shade), new stickers on the fridge, and a new coat
of paint. But the bunks are still there, 8 beds to a room and it still says
"SAL'S BED" down the side of one of the wooden bed frames where I once marked
my claim after inviting 30 people from the Vineyard to come see and stay with
us.
It was great to see some old friends: Dougie Fresh, and Jesse Dutra, who
took us out to dinner in Kathy Lee Gifford's club wagon. To my great
surprise and joy, a group of my friends from Martha's Vineyard came over to
see us play: Adam and Fred from The Boogies, Laura, Jay, and Yuck. They're
so cool! And even though the Muse was scantily clad in vacationers this
Wednesday, we had a great time. Bubbles were flowing and the people that
were there, stayed and clapped and danced and the lights were loud and the
room sounded wide eyed and gentle. A young blond dancer asked if she could
wear my red feathered boa and I delightfully obliged though she disappeared
with it soon after. And a rusty bearded man asked me for my autograph, then
traded it to the bartender for a beer.
Walking back to the band house through "the enchanted forest" in my green
buddha tank top and jeans, I felt cold in that relieved, soothing way as the
wind winded from left to right and right to left. I could hear the leaves
ruffling and through the trees, the sound of a loud thumping relentless
reggae bass guitar. The Muse's kitchen staff was having a huge party upstairs
from us. "The Big Payback," I figured, from all the parties we'd probably
made them sleep through in years past. Heidi went to check it out and when
she came back down, she told us that all of the lights were out up there
except a red gel light hanging over a DJ who'd set his gig up on the kitchen
counter and everyone was dancing and grinding in the pitchness. "I'm going
back up!" She exclaimed excitedly and tried to get us to go with her. But I
was tired and climbed up into the top bunk. Put on my stupid sky blue
retainer with the glitter tiger on it, which I'll have to wear for the rest
of my life (thanks Dr. Lempshin) and fell blissfully into sleep to the
blistering bass beat dance of the upstairs going on.
September 2 - Husky Blues, Storrs, CT
The front entrance to Husky Blues is in a strip mall, which made us
nervous. "We've never played a strip mall before." Chris said
sarcastically. I was knitting (I'm making hats for the guys for
Christmas...so don't tell then), but I only glanced up at the Husky Blues
sign, squeezed between the pharmacy and Domino's before I started to feel
queasy. We were relieved to find that the main entrance was in the back and
was cool. Like other venues, framed, signed black and white 8 X 10's were
displayed like trophies on the wall, input cords hung uneasily from the sides
of the stage, people smoked and talked about the carelessness of others,
lights dangled like pet stars, and we were told that "the sound man isn't
here yet."
We loaded in and ate dinner. Brian had a shrimp salad, Kenny (his
favorite) Chicken Fried Steak, Chris T-bone, Soucy had a pasta thing and I
just had onion rings. I felt a little sick. My voice felt like tapioca and
I prayed I'd make it through the next three nights before we got a break.
It was another slow night for us. UCONN students were not yet back from
summer. I changed clothes in the back cage of the van which is slowly
becoming the official band changing room. Soucy was back there too and there
was a lot of bumping and a lot of "Turn around" "Don't look" and "Close your
eyes" as though even a thread of modesty still hung between the 5 of us pent
up in this van for the past 8 months. Kaddidids rubbed their legs together
and made a noise resembling the roar of a small tiger. I did vocal
exercises and knit as people arrived, parked and looked at me sideways
wondering what the hell I was doing.
I sat in the green room with Brian teaching him (with Kenny's help) the
IN's and OUT's of the female psyche. Despite the fact that there were only
30 people there, there was a line waiting to get in. The people who came to
see us really wanted to see us and so we had a good show, and somehow managed
to sell 40 CD's.
Now I'm on vocal rest, and tired, but I'm happy and ready for what ever
may come tomorrow. IT HAS TO BE ABOUT THE RIDE....NOT THE DESTINATION.
September 3 - The Iron Horse, Northampton, MA
It was hot in Northampton. I felt like I was baking in my overalls and
tank. Vocal rest can be such a drag, and I must admit I felt somewhat
uncommitted to my silence. I'd left my favorite Purple T-shirt with the
rainbow trout on it, that I've had since I was 8, back in the band house on
Nantucket. So I was desperately calling the club and talking to people who
could have cared less about my shirt and were probably using it as a bar rag
as they claimed they hadn't seen it "It's probably gone by now." They said.
Outside the Iron Horse there was no sign up that we would be playing and
I wondered why no one had even bothered to advertise our show or put up any
posters. I decided to do it myself. After we loaded in, I went to work
postering the town with some duck tape and a sharpie.
I came back to the club exhausted and HOT. "Sally?" I heard and turned
around to see someone I'd never met before. "Hey, I'm Tom, I've been reading
your road journal. That's how I found out about the show tonight." He said
excitedly. Upon seeing the rest of the guys he yelled out each of their
names having recognized them from their pictures. The boys seemed frightened
but I was delighted as he recalled to them, different scenarios we'd been
through in the past couple of weeks. He offered to buy the guys a drink. "I
think I'd better," said Delucchi still stunned that the guy knew what color
his coffee press was.
Celia was the opener. She lives around Northampton, so she brought in a
good sized audience and she sounded good too. She sang some cool jazzy stuff
accompanied by sax and piano. Neil, the manager, told us to abbreviate our
set but he was too polite to tell us that merely cutting two songs wasn't
enough. So I was greatly disturbed and confused when, despite the positive
reception and reaction we were getting from the audience, people were getting
up and leaving after about an hour of the show. I felt rushed and somehow
invisible up there in the red and orange glowing spot lights.
Afterwards, when Chris was settling, Neil told Delucchi that people who
come to see music here are used to a 45 to 60 minute set and that our 95
minute set was just too long for them. I wish they'd told us that before.
We would have had no problem shortening our long set. Besides my voice was
tired and raw now and I couldn't imagine how I'd make it through the 5th
consecutive show in RI.
Neil invited us over to the "Black Elvis Show" that was going on down the
street. We agreed to go for a while. Inside it was dark and loud and
everyone was twelve with too many holes in their faces, they wore ink stains
on their shoulders and arms, and braids that had turned into lifeless arms
which flapped and clapped as they hopped and danced in their thrift.
We felt old. Well, not old "just a little too ol' to be in the
club"-Chris Rock. On the way back to the van, Soucy had to stop into an old
romp of a gig he use to play in Northampton. Chris went to school at Smith,
so he knew all the in's and out's of the area. I fell asleep in Moby while
the other's went for late night snacks down the hill.
September 8 - The Metronome, Burlington, Vermont.
"Where should I put this roll away bed frame?" I turned around to see
Soucy, in his plaid boxer shorts standing next to a folded, rusty, coiled
spring, roll away bed frame. He'd slid the thin, crispy mattress onto the
floor, which, despite being freed from it's cage like frame, still refused to
lay flat on the ground. Instead it sat upright like a pathetic, limp, pseudo
craftmatic. I looked around the tiny hospital-like room. My laundry lay
flopped over the back of a chair, the light from the mirror over the sink
bleached the walls to Clorox, a computer here, a suitcase there, a glued down
wood colored table in the corner with note pads on it, full of song ideas and
my chicken scratch from days of silence. It was late, 3:00. There wasn't
any place to put the bed frame and Soucy wanted to put it in the bathtub.
The only apparent empty space was in Chris Delucchi's bed which lay adjacent
to the bed I slept in. "Put it in Chris's bed." I said sarcastically.
Suddenly a very devilish grin arrived on Soucy's face and no sooner had he
said "should I?!?!" and let out a cackle from out his soul patched chin, the
frame was up and tucked into Delucchi's bed. The rest of the boys were in
207 partying after the VERY UNEVENTFUL Burlington show!!!!
I stayed up and watched the middle part of "The Wall" and turned out the
lights just in time to hear the Chris's coming back in the room. "I put
something in your bed for you to sleep with." Said Soucy through a smile I
couldn't see. I could tell that Delucchi was trying to make out of the dark,
what Chris had put in his bed.
"What did you put in there?" he squinted "A blow up doll?"
That's right folks, 1/2 way into a tour even a rusty bed frame can appear
sexual. I call this phenomenon "The Roast Chicken Phenomenon." Remember
the cartoon "Chilly Willie?" In it, whenever a character is starving, the
other characters appear as roasted chickens to him. Sexual starvation, I
believe, has a similar effect. In the throws of starvation, EVERYTHING
STARTS TO LOOK LIKE A CHICKEN.
The day rained a lot but between drenchings Brian and I got a roller
blade in down by the lake and I did a little shopping too. I like
Burlington. It reminds me of a love affair I once had with a boy who went up
to college around here. The fall, the way it is now, reminds me of the good
times we had, picking up orange and yellowing leaves and wearing flannel and
making fires and feeling the crisp air against our cheeks at football games,
and drinking hot apple cider through cinnamon sticks. The relationship ended
horribly that winter. The guy ended kicking me out of his truck on the side
of the highway in Boston, penniless, right before the Downtown/Chinatown
exit off I-95. But it's funny how the good times remain intact, untouched by
the bad times. And even though I've never talked to that boy again, I still
carry him around in my memories, and in those precious creases and folds in
the fall of my heart.
September 9 - The House Of Blues, Boston, MA
I've become addicted to flossing. I think it's because I've made an
appointment with the dentist in Boulder to get my teeth cleaned when I get
home. The receptionist asked me how long it had been since I'd seen a
dentist. "5 years.?.? I think." I said wincing at what her inevitable
response would be. "WOW that's a long time," She said, as I had predicted.
"do you floss regularly?" she asked. "Yeah," I lied. "'Cus if you don't," she warned, "THE DENTIST WILL KNOW." She was obviously
used to patient's, such as myself, telling flossing fibs. Since that
conversation I carry a roll of floss with me everywhere I go and floss at
least 5 times a day just so that the dentist wont bust me.
So I was flossing when we pulled up to the H.O.B loading door. The
thread still hanging haphazardly from the left side of my cheek as I stepped
out of the van into the bright windy afternoon and examined the sign that had
my name painted on it. It was beautiful and it waved at me from the air
above the dinner sign which offered tonight's special: "Chicken in a cone."
I like to video a taste of our venues, so I filmed our load in. Upstairs
it was New Orleans. Flavors and colors and glitter were dancing like gypsy
children in Venice and I was entranced through the lens until some guy came
up to me and told me that "There is ABSOLUTELY NO VIDEOING ALLOWED IN THE
HOB" so I stopped.
It was 9/9/99 and wasn't the world supposed to end or something like
that. Load in was a bitch. Hefting "Fat Amy," Brian's drum case, up the
narrow blue, chipped, crooked and cranked back stairs was backbreaking and
then we were reminded that we needed to take it out again at the end of the
night.
The dressing room was decorated in pea green velvet couches and colorful
drip candles and blue dogs and voodoo and belly dancer lamps and pieces of
furniture that folded out into tables, or turned into chairs. We were
treated with more respect and with more hospitality than I have ever
experienced in any club (or in my life for that matter). A pretty waitress,
Jamillie, came up to take our dinner orders. The boys had a crush on the
merch girl, Daniella, and fought over who got to go down and exchange the too
large shirt Kenny had bought for his wife. I did vocals. Every few minutes,
I got surprised by another friend popping up to say "hi" who I hadn't seen
for, well, ever and started getting excited to play because we had a sold out
show. (Thank you God! And The Boston Globe who called pinned us as "the hot
ticket to have in Boston.")
It was a great night! Full of familiar faces, so many that I can't even
begin to name them. After the show I knelt off to stage left and sold and
signed CD's with the help of Susannah Sharp (my old high school buddy) to the
bouquets of faces that presented me with kind words, delicate eyes, shaking
hands and generous hugs.
I felt very loved. Thank you all for coming. What a grand and handsome
night.
When we drove to my mom's pad, which she'd allowed us to stay in under
the strict condition that we leave it in the same condition we found it in.
As we neared the building, I realized that I couldn't find my music journal,
which besides having all the songs I've written this year, also contained
directions on how to turn the alarm system in the house off. We all
frantically searched Moby for the zebra striped book. I tore all of my
clothes out of my over stuffed bag onto the urine stinted streets of Beacon
Hill, but could find it nowhere. I ended up having to call my poor mom at
3:00 am for the alarm code, which I hated doing because I know that she has
insomnia and sometimes can't get back to sleep when woken up in the middle of
the night. But of course she was a heavenly angel on the phone even when she
had to get up and go to her computer for the information I needed.
Chris D. ended up finding my journal later, buried in my knitting bag.
Dummy Sally...Dummy. It's raining now.
September 10 - The Mercury Lounge, NYC
Driving in New York City is really very dangerous. I'm convinced that
NYC cab drivers think those little parallel, white, painted stripes on the
streets, are murals. It took us 5 hours to get into town from Boston. Rosh
Hashanah!!!
An audience was there, though we could barely see them, in the Mercury
darkness, posing in the urgent capes of blindness, in shadows. I was
surprised, when the lights came on, to see so many of my old friends.
Rachel Zabar (my best friend from kindergarten) embraced me with
golden glittering eyes and her huge smile which always seems to me, to escape
the perimeters of her face.
My stepfather, Jim Hart's, being there surprised me, said he'd
heard about the show from a friend at work. A bunch of people from Boulder
were there, a bunch of people from Brown were present, a handful of friends
from high school, a trickle of people who insisted we'd met before and 'did I
remember their names?' were there. A friend from Costa Rica showed up
without an I.D., couldn't get in and had to leave. Friends of friends,
friends of friends of friends and some of their friends were there too.
My publicist, Ariel, offered to put us up at her parent's house
for the night and while I was talking to her about logistics a man floated by
in a huge current of people on their way out the door, and dropped a slice of
paper on the table in front of me. I opened it immediately. Ariel and I
squinted at the serrated square. It said: "I ENJOYED THE SHOW. YOU ARE ALL
GROWN UP!" and it was signed 'Oren (3rd grade).'
"WHICH WAY DID HE GO?" I shouted to Ariel. The room was silent but the
dark seemed to be making things too loud to hear. "THAT WAY," she yelled back
and pointed toward the front exit "HE HAD A WHITE T-SHIRT ON!" I didn't have
time to explain to her that he had been my first crush. He'd bought me a
porcelain faced doll for my 7th birthday and I fell head over heels for him.
I had that doll through out my adolescence. It was displayed up on my shelf.
It's since sort of disappeared since we've left our apartment in New York,
but I'm sure it's around somewhere, packed in moth balls and memories,
somewhere between the center of the earth and the tips of my fingers.
Outside, the streets had been emptied into a horizon of heat blurred red and
yellow lights to both my left and my right. I rushed myself right up to the
first white T-shirt I saw and said "Hi" just hoping it was Oren, but it
ended up being one of those people who insisted we'd met before but who's
name I did not know. I never found him.
Inside, selling CDs, a very pretty Ann Taylor (no relation) introduced
herself. She'd come across our web page in the most unique and cool way:
"I was looking on a search engine for Sally Taylor Orchids," she said
"did you know there was a flower called Sally Taylor?" I said I hadn't known
but was delighted all the same. "Well," she said tossing a blond lock behind
a gold earringed ear "they're called Brother Sally Taylor Orchids. So I was
searching for this flower when the engine came up with your web page and I
clicked on it. Since then I've been following your Road Tails and now I'm
getting your CD for my niece."
"That's so cool," I replied, "what's her name?"
"It's Ally Taylor. How wild is that?" It was amazing how many
coincidences there were. She also told me that she'd always been a HUGE fan
of Len Soucy's. (He's Chris Soucy's dad and he is the official on birds!)
She said she was so blown away that his son was in my band. I told her to go
tell Chris, that he'd get a huge kick out of it. So she went up to Soucy and
told him she was a huge fan of his father, and upon hearing that, Chris
thought Ann thought that he was my brother. He laughed when she explained
that she tracked red tailed hawks in Central Park.
When people had left and the bar was just wooden and not littered with
bodies or bottles or dollar bills, I went with Mike White and Brian Sperber
around the corner to a local, low volume bar where we talked over the
possibility of recording my next album together. We somehow got into the
private party that was going on in the jungle room in the back of the bar and
being mistaken for a party guest, I was offered a piece of dark chocolate
cake with white chocolate frosting on top, which I accepted and ate the
frosting off of.
As I woke up this morning, I became severely disoriented and couldn't
figure out where I was! Was I in Detroit? Was I at my mom's house in
Martha's Vineyard? Was I in tomorrow? And where was that? I had to go
slowly through the past week still in the dark, trying to remember where I
was yesterday and therefore where I might be now? It was kind of scary and I
felt myself having to remind my lungs to breathe.
We went to breakfast with Ariel on Amsterdam and 78th and then it was
time to go to RI. But where was Soucy? In my confusion I'd somehow lost
track of him. "He went home with some girl last night." Said Kenny.
"OOHHH" We all said. And that's about all there is to say about that
without getting my head taken off by my guitarist. Can't wait to get to
Providence.
September 11 - The Hot Club, Providence, RI
What an exceptionally fun night! In Providence's 6:30, my old college
stomping grounds, the sun bloomed rose and fire and oranged up the air which
seemed to calm itself and settle into the laps of those, slightly
intoxicated, who came down to the shore to see the musical festivities.
The Hot Club is a three day festival and it's free. How groovy is
Providence?!?! A few children danced to the music they hear inside their
heads, which I think all children are born with and somehow lose along with
their time and their toys and their responsibilities. I hung out with the
guys and drank a beer to the set of a sun and then we played. It was a
smallish crowd which gathered in and around the parameters of the blue and
white tent. And having had no sound check, we were hard pressed to find our
instruments in the monitor mixes. So it was a hard show but short and sweet
which I was grateful for, seeing as though my voice was throwing temper
tantrum's every time I tried to sing above a whisper.
Elijah Driscol, a groove cat we met at our show at Ocean Mist, said he'd
put us up for the night at "The crazy Iguana cafe," his pad up on Federal
Hill. He came to the show in his lanky slender tallness and danced for us
doing wildly poetic gyrations and sleek side winder glides in his Lennon
Purple lensed shades and orange tussled hair. Michele, a kind and smiling
woman, sold me her barley greens. "The cure all," she insists and who am I
to argue? A group of my friends, Phil, Josh, Steve and his fiancee, from
Brown came down to the show. I hadn't seen them since 95 or 96 and was
ecstatic to see them all.
And while "Sit and Spin," an all female rock band set up and played, and
after we ate chicken on a stick and signed CD's, we loaded Moby up in the
satin coolness that had settled over the shore of Providence.
Josh and Phil invited me to join them all up at their pad for a glass of
wine and then from there, to go out dancing. None of my guys were up for a
night of hula so I tried to find a way to get up to the right hand side of
The Hill. I argued, on the pay phone, to a cab service that $8 to The Hill
was a joke. A very nice guy who was 6'7" and drinking milk and over hearing
me, offered to take me up the hill himself, he had his car parked right over
yonder, he said. I took him up on the drive, talking to him, on the ride,
about how "milk" is one of my favorite words to say. He said he drank milk
cus he didn't drink alcohol but offered to smoke me up when we arrived in the
drive way. "No thanks" I said, handing him a CD and thanking him for the
ride.
Upstairs at Josh and Phil's it was candlelight and red wine and laugh
laugh laugh and finally home. Not my home, though it may as well been, seeing
as though I don't even remember what my home looks like, save that it's white
and has a lawn and a porch and black and white tiles in the kitchen and a bed
that Kipp built for me with the little heart engraved in it's head board.
No, I feel more at home in the van, in my suitcase, in my dreams than in the
house I pay a monthly rent to not live in. Inside Josh and Phil's place, I
felt the deep sense of home that they must have there, with a fireplace and
hardwood floors and a porch and white walls with pictures on them and a
stove that looks like it's cooked for friends before and blue place mats that
are slightly worn at the edges. They said it'd be OK if I wanted to stay
there the night instead of fighting my way back up to the Iguana Cafe. I
can't explain my gratitude except to say that I felt that they were handing
me a slice of ground, of peace, of a sigh from which I can now sip for the
rest of this strange non-journey journey.
We all went dancing at "The Complex," which is a "4 clubs in one building
for the price of one" get up, where men must be 21 of over but women can get
in if they're 18. We drifted melodically through doors which connected one
decade of music to the next. Just like daydreaming we went from room to
room forgetting what we'd come from and only conscious of our immediate
surroundings. We danced and danced and danced and danced and danced and
danced until we were asleep and it was dawn and the tension was finally gone.
The tightness around the middle of my breath....it was gone. Dancing can do
that. Thank you guys.
September 12 - The Painted Bride Art Center, Philadelphia PA
The Bride was beautiful. Mirrors clung to her side like gems and tiles
cloaked her body in blue and gold and silver. Inside, she echoed blue and
hollow. I felt like we were in the lungs of some enormous creature sound
checking. I felt blessed to be the voice for this animal, this bride.
We were opening for Entrain, some of my old pals from Martha's Vineyard
who've been around forever. I remember sneaking in to see them when I was
underage and dancing til the sun came up. They are a great band.
The Emmys or the Grammies or the Oscars or some other ridiculous pomp was
on in the green room, with the barnyard sliding doors. I watched ego dressed
up in the latest glam, strut and sway like peacocks and pant, self conscious,
to the interviewers, who asked them stupid and banal questions. I watched
with an anthropological eye, curious as to how these people could actually
survive fame. Or are these people dead? I wondered.
I was in the middle of a very upsetting and distressing phone
conversation when Soucy came to get me. "15 minutes Sal." He said. I could
hardly open my lips to tell him that I'd be right there and he mistook my
sadness for anger and thought I was pisssed off at him.
15 minutes? We'd just gotten there. I ran into the dressing room to
tell the boys it was up to them to create a set list. I borrowed Delucchi's
van keys and rushed out into the alleyway. I grabbed at my bulky black bag
and tore out if it a gray T-shirt with a pink crane on it and a calf length
red skirt. My hair was tied back in a nest of a bun and my eyes were puffy
from crying. No time to change inside, I looked both ways and tore off my
shirt and jeans and, naked in the ally I shoved arms and legs into the chosen
outfit. A red light blared down at me like a police siren as I covered
myself in my red costume and rushed back inside and directly onto the stage.
"Sign of Rain," was the first song, and in my confusion and sadness I
forgot to capo. I'm definitely drinking that Bud. The whole show was sort
of a blunder. I was sad, Kenny was tired, Brian was using brushes instead of
sticks, and Soucy was defensive thinking that I was angry at him. We weren't
playing together! But no one really seemed to notice. It was definitely a
sit down crowd and I wondered how Entrain was going to play their dance there?
Dave Dreiwitz and Kate Bartoldus, two friends of Soucy were at the show
and after hanging out, taking some Polaroid's with Phil and chilling out with
Denny, signing some CD's and meeting some really great people, we went out
for a beer. We walked down the street to The KhYber, a cool venue/gothic
style bar. The jukebox held excellent and obscure bands which we brought to
life and danced to. Dave is a really cool guy and we got straight to the no
BS convo. Chris and Kenny had gone straight to the hotel from the gig, to
get some shut eye but ended up showing up at the KhYber around midnight
saying, and I quote, "We're going to have to drive to New Jersey," they said
"the hotel can't take us here."
We all filed into Moby and fogged up the windows as Dave and Kate had
smokes and we all chatted it up in there for a while. We were all crunched
and claustrophobic in the dark whispers we tried to use so as not to take up
any extra space with unneeded words. I was just tired. Beat. Sad.
The night seemed all cake. Cake decorated with pink frosting flowers and
those candles that never blow out. Never blow out. Never. Blow. Out. But
when they do, we are in New Jersey and the beds have a creak and a craw and a
flatness that even the horizon would be envious of.
September 13 The Walden School, Media, PA
"These are a few of my favorite things..." - The Sound of Music.
I woke up late. 11:15. Soucy got me up with coffee in bed. 'How
thoughtful' I thought but when I thanked him and told him that he shouldn't
have he said "I did it out of fear, I'm scared of you without coffee." He
said.
I took a shower, the first in 3 days, since Boston (gross) and my skin
felt sore and itchy from the waxy hotel soap. I put on my new red skirt and
shirt that I got at Urban Outfitters on Newbury Street and sought out
Chris's approval: "That's very scholastic." He beamed. I could hear him
calling the girl he'd "hung out with" in NYC as I dried my hair. She'd asked
him to go to Cuba with her in November and he was curious as to whether she
was serious or not. He sounded very "Soucy," like with his signature
sentence phrasing. Chris starts his sentences off fast like a race and then
as he's nearing the punctuation of his sentence he slows w a y d o w n . . . ... as though he were coming up to a stop
sign. I love it very much.
We didn't have exact directions to the Walden School's new location in
Media PA and we gestimated that it was only about 20 miles away. We were
supposed to be there at 12:00 for lunch and then play at 1:30 but lost in the
dregs of PA at 1:15 we weren't sure we'd make it at all. We were worried
that Marji (our administrator) was frantic but we had no cell phone and so
therefore, had to just press on. We arrived in the nick of time. All the
kids were assembled out on the lawn and the sun was bright and warm like
candy.
The music teacher had set us up under a tree with a little mini board and
an amplifier. We started playing the show. I looked out into the crowd and
felt as though I was playing to tiny, majestic, angels. I was so happy to
be in front of those children. After playing a couple of songs I told them
that performing music is like painting with words and to close their eyes and
try to tell me how, if they were to paint the next song, what would they
draw? I looked back to see what was on the set list and to my distress it
was "Red Room," a song about a night I once spent waiting in a green room, to
kiss the bartender. Oops?!?! But I sang it anyway, all the time watching
all those little people with their eyes clenched shut as though the daylight
would distract them from their visions as I sang "kissed a boy I hardly
knew...left him sitting in the blue....lay me down lay me down lay me
down...." and I felt like such the bad, corruptive influence on those little
souls. But to my gratitude and joy, when I asked them to tell me what they
had envisioned they said "My cousin, because she was just born and she was
little." And "A girl in a room who is tired" one little guy came up to the
mic and charmed everyone there by saying "That song reminds me of my
brother's girlfriend Brittany Spears." And ran away. I was so impressed
with their creativity. Because they see things without an extensive
vocabulary, their understanding seems to be reduced/expanded to a personal
and universal meaning of music, they're reacting not just to the words but
the sound too. They really get music! It seems to me that they must live
everyday inside of poetry. How beautiful and UN-confining and yet terrifying
to be able to see a bird and not just "feather" and "wing" and "beak" and
"twerp" but instead, to see, with the magic of their eyes, the poetry and the
spirit of that thing which flies and moves by the same restless ghosts which
trussles our hair and buttons our jackets and fondles the ocean into the
wrinkles of a taffeta skirt. I asked them how they would describe a
Christmas tree: "a tree with life on it," said one boy. "A porcupine" said
another. And I wanted to stay with them all day and ask them to teach me
what different things were, so that I could see, like them, without the
borders and cages of the language my eyes have learned to speak so fluently.
I asked anyone who wanted to come up and dance to the next song to come
on up and stand next to me. I ended up wadding in little ones. They stood
so close around me that I could barely reach the mic. One tiny boy with
blond straight hair and shorts on was hugging onto mic stand so that it was
swaying and making it very difficult to sing and I loved it. I was 1/2 way
through "For Kim," with all those beautiful dancers standing hip high to me
and holding onto my legs and fingers and dancing when Soucy, who was playing
guitar, started getting harassed by a yellow jacket. Chris is allergic to
bee stings. When I started hearing guitar fowls I looked over to see Soucy,
wearing my huge purple shades and doing what we now refer to as "The Bee
Dance" which consisted of rapid head thrusts, bursting, spastic runs with
sudden, stand still halts and reverse spin's. But that bee was on him like
glue and seemed to be really digging my purple rimmed shades and the lavender
oil he insisted he have before the show. I started laughing at a very
distressed Soucy who refused, or was too distracted to stop playing the
guitar but was playing all the wrong chords as Kenny ran hysterically around
him with the video camera laughing and whirling with him. In the midst of
the hysteria, my mic stopped working, which didn't really matter because by
that point I was laughing so hard that drool was practically dripping out of
my mouth and all the kids were laughing and pointing and drooling too.
When Soucy finally lost the bee we tried to resume but we couldn't get
the mic back on. Turns out that the electricity in the whole school had gone
for some reason unrelated to the bee and because we couldn't get it back on,
and because I was in such a happy state from the laughter I grabbed Chris,
and grabbed the kids and brought them all out into the sun on the field and
proceeded to sing acoustically and twirl them around. Bri put tambourines in
Delucchi and Kenny's hands and they joined the chorus. All the angels and I,
unconscious of the onlooking teachers and parents, danced in a huge,
tremendous circle whirling around barefoot and laughing and singing along to
"Happy Now." The little boys teased each other as they came up to me
pointing at their class mates "he wants to dance with you," they'd say and
the little girls all fought for the room inside my hand which could only fit
about 6. The joy and the ecstatic, unconditional love I felt for these light
and glorious tiny angels is hard to describe. They surrounded me as though
I were a cloud they wanted to perch upon and they yelled up to me, arms
swinging: "group hug, group hug." Oh I can't explain it without tears it
was so beautiful extraordinary for me to be enveloped by them. And as the
song ended and I told them, bowing down to them in all of their magnificence:
"we have to sit down now." They screamed "WE DON'T WANT TO LEAVE, WE DON'T
WANT TO LEAVE," and "WE WANT TO STAY WITH YOU. WE WANT TO STAY WITH YOU"
I've never felt so good in my entire life.
After that they all came rushing at me with things for me to autograph.
The usual: CD's, posters, lined school book paper, and T-shirts but I also
signed a tortilla chip, a flower petal, a water bottle and someone's skirt.
Then, all of the sudden, just as I was waking up, it was the end of the day
for these little knee highs and the yellow, clanking, chuckling, buckling
busses came to swallow them up. I watched them fly away and up the school
bus stairs waving from the back windows. Just their eyes and fingertips were
visible from the backs of their seats.
I felt so sad to see them go. Marji ushered me into hospitality and once
again showered us with treats and gifts. I was on cloud nine.
After leaving, I decided that I definitely need a few days without
talking and so it is from silence that I am speaking now. We drove through
PA and through other small states without stopping. In Virginia we started
looking for Brian's grandparents house. But the directions Bri had were
vague and decrepit and so we drove around in circles which all ended up
leading to Lee Street. We finally found their house. It was up a road that
looked like all the rest we had been on. With houses all relatively the same
size and trees spread loosely between the houses which all seemed to be on
that one way street to holiday. Brian apologized for getting us lost.
"I once fell off my skateboard right here and got a concussion." He said
pointing to a curb. And Delucchi said, without a beat
"So that's what happened." No one else really got it.
On our way to the hotel, after dropping McRae off, in the sporadic
revelations between street lights passing from overhead to behind us, I got
a spider of considerable size stuck in my skirt. I had to jump up and down
and freak out which amused the boys to no end. But there ain't nothing funny
about a spider in the skirt, nothing I can think of, and just think of what that
poor helpless spider was going through, trying to get out!!!!!
September 15 - The Metro, Washington DC
It was a joy to have a day off. I spent it doing stress reducing
activities. While the boys went off to see a baseball game, I stayed in the
rather roomy room and didn't speak. I took a bath, did yoga, meditated for
an hour and tried to get my mind off anything work related. I realized just
how lucky I am to be doing what I love, to be living my dreams and to be out
here on my own making a living with some of my best friends in the world.
It rained the day we went to play The Metro and I just didn't feel like
getting out of my sleeping attire so I spent the entire day turning heads
wearing my pulled up, knee high, rainbow socks with my green camouflage flip
flops, my red and gray baseball shirt and my bright yellow shorts. I went
for coffee in my strange costume, to the Post Office and eventually, to The
Metro. I just wasn't in the caring mood I guess + I kind of enjoyed the way
people were reacting to me; with disgust and hysterical laughter.
The Metro is a cool looking smallish theater place. It reminded me of
the marble stairwell that used to belong to my childhood apartment building
on 73rd and Central Park West in New York City. The well was very old and
worn and the marble stairs, at their ledges, were worn from so many souls and
so many flights and so many years. I remember it had a mahogany railing and
a cast iron decorative bannister. It had golden floor length mirrors on every
floor, where, through the cracks and blemishes of my 6-year-old image in
them, I thought I could see my future. I don't know why the Metro reminded
me of that old well, or whether the Metro even had any marble in it to speak
of, but it had a feeling about it. It was a chandelier, hollow, comforting
feeling that I could crawl into with my eyes shut and swear that I was home.
5 great bands, and we were the finale. We ate around the corner at
Sied's place that Nick, Metro's owner, took us to in the rain, after sound
check. Nick was a phone guy. I didn't see him once without a phone attached
to his ear. I even walked in on him, by accident in the bathroom and he was
there, peeing, on the phone. The whole band, bearing witness to the event,
laughed along with Nick about the comedy of errors.
All the bands were great and we were honored to be the headliners. The
room was packed with friendly faces. It was great to see my old friends and
pick up a few extras. My high school roommate, Nimi, was there and she'd
brought tons of her friends. I grabbed her and carted her off into the
backstage area; just a walkway really, with some stickers on the wall, coils
and coils of chords, guitars on stands, guitars in cases, a raw bulb that
burned with a hiss. I turned an orange milk crate over and sat down on it
leaning in close to gossip with my old friend and flipping through my overstuffed bag trying to figure out what to wear? I still just had my PJ's on
and was half toying with the idea of playing the show like that. After all,
I was kind of in a goofy mood (lazy too) but mostly I felt silly and strongly
believe in not taking oneself too seriously when performing. It frightens
the ego away to act like a fool on purpose and that's good!!! But Nimi said
"NO SAL, you cannot wear that on stage." So I changed into a tank and some
jeans (but I kept my rainbow socks on).
The show went great. The rain didn't keep everyone in as we had worried,
and I got to see some great old pals.
Right Now: Soucy's making teeth sucking noises. He's got his feet
dangling over the back of my seat and into my face (hummmmm smells good).
Kenny and Chris are rocking out in front and eating fried chicken. I'm
peeling shelled and salted peanuts and Brian is working in his organizer
book. "I love you guys." I say, because I'm thinking it and they all ask
sarcastically: "What did we do?" They know how much I love them and respect
them, and how grateful I am to be on this adventure with them.
September 16 - JM Randall's. Williamsburg, VA
Chris Soucy got in the van. He closed the door against him. He'd tried
to avoid the rain and clipped himself on the heal on the way out of the
hurricane. He slid into the sleeper seat with his Cuba book crooked under
his right arm. The Cuba book appeared one day on the road in the mail from
New York all dog eared and underlined. He's grown rather fond of holding the
cover up and announcing it as though he were introducing a friend "KUBAH,"
he'll say and "are we there yet?" in his left hand he has a white, plastic
bag that's been tied in a tight knot at the top, and is, like him, rather
drenched in weather.
"I've got presents for you guys." Excitedly we all turn as he wrangles
with the knot he's made for himself from the handles. "Sally..." and he hands
me a red covered, slick Johnny Taylor CD entitled "Stop half loving these
women!" I love the title and insist we listen to it first, before the James
Brown, Delucchi got, before the Morris Day that Kenny received and before
Brian's Funkadelic. It proves to be a great CD. (not my dad, for any one who
read the Detroit entree, but a great CD).
I'm nervous because the day is tumultuous. Heaving and thrusting trees
are warning that "Floyd" is near. Delucchi, who coincidentally grew up in
San Francisco and has never been in a hurricane before in his life, is trying
to tell me to calm down, that I'm over reacting, and that we should be on our
way now despite the fact that we'll be driving head long into the tornado
path which the weather channel had laid out as the route not to travel on. I
decide not to look out the window but to knit, instead, in the black and
heavy wool I've chosen to weave my instruments of warmth out of and
everything becomes symbolic. The color, the weight, the pattern. I'm sure
that it's not smart to drive in a hurricane.
We stopped in Richmond because we wanted to check Floyd's status before we
headed to the shore. The streets were desolate and windows boarded. Tree's
froze then thundered down and street lights hung at 45 degree angles. Only a
few places were opened. We stopped at a pizza place and got a slice. We
watched the flooding on TV as the weather ate cars and homes. The TV made me
feel worse. We had seen what looked like a drum store on the way into town
and decided to go shopping for a little, while Floyd took some distance on
Wiliamsburg.
"Ghana" was the name of the supposed drum store. But inside it turned
out to be a religious, African voodoo shop with incense, perfume, jewelry,
pin dolls, candles which had been blessed and said under them "Touch ='s Buy"
and other candles which had not been blessed. I bought a little bottle of a
scent called "love drops" and some candles (unblessed) which were in long
cylindrical smooth glass casings. They still had ritualistic purposes of
which I wasn't sure of. One was called "run devil run," another "the quick
money blessing." I loved them very much.
When we got to the strip mall, where the venue was, there was no
electricity and it felt erie. Despite the hurricane there were people there
waiting with cameras asking if they could get a picture with me, and I knew
then that the show had been promoted as "The Famous Daughter Of..." So I
stood there pleasantly, feeling like the bearded lady, the circus freak, the
novelty item on sale for $3.99 in the tourist store, as people stood there
taking my picture having never heard me utter a single word, and thinking me
rude for excusing myself after all the photo's for having to go do a sound
check "after all we waited here in the middle of a hurricane to talk to you."
They said.
My spirit was stretched between exhausted and riled, as I entered the
dark and carnivorous bar. I love my parents and I love their fans who tell
me they are. I'm a huge fan of their's too. And I don't care how newspapers
and magazine's portray me, I can't do anything about that. But if a venue
promotes me as my parent's kid, well then it's open season on the probing
questions and pictures and interrogation and that just takes the fun out of
performing and makes me feel like I'm doing an interview not a show. Besides
$200 bucks ain't worth being made to feel uncomfortable over. So the only
thing left to do was make fun of the situation and of our selves.
I was really dehydrated. I sat in a booth with my rainbow socks on,
knitting and humming and drinking water which tasted really funky until a
waiter came over and told me not to drink the water any more on account of it
being contaminated due to the flooding, then I stared feeling sick.
The show was sold out and it went down pretty smoothly despite the fact
that the we started the show without electricity on a generator and then for
a while we were blessed with electricity which lasted the body of the show
and then died toward the end of the second set. We just made fun of ourselves and played our hearts out and drank sewer water and danced and
thrashed as people called up requests: "You got a Friend" and "You're so
Vain." I don't know how to play those, I said.
Most of the people I met were actually really nice. They bought CD's and
hung out offering advice and homes and alternative ways to get to N.C.
tomorrow. Of course we had more GLOM than usual that hung around us too long
and too late and stuck like gum to the bottom of our shoes and lasted big on
our taste buds. But we had a good time and sleep was delicious the way it
sank into my bones and melted the lines across my forehead into the
smoothness of chilled milk.
3 more shows.
September 17 - The Great Aunt Stella Center. Charlotte, NC
The Center is a church. It's beautiful, full of light and stain glass
and pews and echoes and red carpet. I rush out to the van to get the video
camera. As I open the back door, Chris's pastel blue coffee press flings
itself out at me and comes crashing down to meet it's death at my feet. I
can't even speak. I'm filming the disaster when I hear Delucchi shriek "NO!"
from in back of me. I whip around to catch his distressed, palms to cheeks,
expression. We held a quiet burial for the press in the bathroom trash can
and I told Chris I was so sorry. He said it was all right but I could tell
that it would be a while before he got over the death of his morning time old
friend.
I was opening up for David Wilcox without the band but Soucy was gonna
come up and play with me for a couple of songs. We sat upstairs in
hospitality picking at the trays of fruit and chicken salads. Brian told us
his middle name was "Serge" and we teased him that we were going to start
calling him that. He was hating that idea.
It was strange, but nice, going on stage by myself. I haven't played a
solo gig for a really long time. I felt myself pouring out more of myself up
there on the red and naked stage. After the 3rd song I said "I'd like to
invite someone up on stage from the audience who knows how to play the
guitar." Soucy flung his arms in the air: "Pick me! Pick me!" He squealed
and came rushing down to the stage like a contestant on "The Price Is Right."
David Wilcox was GREAT. He's a fantastic story teller and man does his
guitar sound great. We did a radio show together after his set. I really
enjoyed him.
LG and Mike, some college friends of Soucy's, invited us back to the camp
where they live, for the night. Camp Stuart. It's really a camp! With rope
tire swings, a pond, a pool, volleyball nets, and cabins with slanted floors,
"You don't need to lock up the van. You're safe here." Said Mike. We were
evidently out in the middle of nowhere. I felt protected by the night as
Mike led us into his art studio/guest room/brewery. He let us sample his
creative beer concoctions. I had a strawberry blond.
There were enough beds for every one but two people were going to have to
sleep out in the cabins across the pond. The rhythm section (Bri and Kenny)
said they'd go out there. "Are there any snakes around here?" asked Bri with
a sarcastic giggle.
"Sure are." Said Mike "Copperheads. Big ones." Brian's face went white
and his lips hung limply under his nose: "For real?" he asked and did a
little snake dance. He had another beer before we drove them over across the
pond. I'll never forget the homesick look on their faces as we discovered
that there was no electricity out there in the cabins, handed them a
flashlight, and pulled away. "You guy's didn't see Blair Witch Project did
you?" I asked. "Not Funny Sally. Not Funny." Shouted Kenny.
September 18 - The Variety Playhouse, Atlanta, Georgia
Someone woke me up with my mommy's touch. The subtle rubbing and gentle
rocking of a loving hand was caressing my back and I lay in my silent
consciousness just above the surface of my dreams, enjoying the loving call
to the new and glorious day. With my eyes still closed, and like most days,
I had no idea where I was. Usually, when I wake up I go through the usual
check list: Who am I? - Sally (that one's easy) Am I alive? -yes. Where am
I? That's when I have to go through a list of all the places I could,
potentially, be until I settle on a location and go onto other, less
important things ...What time is it? What day? Where did I leave off before I
started to dream? And the like. Today, after I confirmed who I was, and
started my daily scroll down the list of "where in the USA I might be," I
just gave up and gave into the possibility that I might be everywhere and
nowhere. It was a peacefulness I was resting on as I opened my eyes and
placed their blurred, sleep splattered gaze on some wild flowers limply
gesturing their innocent scent and pasteling their yellow, purple and green
leaves across the whiteness of the adjacent pillow cover. A mug of coffee,
steaming phantoms, dancing and grabbing at the chill in the room, sat on the
night/morning table. I looked up to see Soucy. He had brought me all this
love and in the puddle and childlike state I was in, I reached my arms up
into the sky, where he appeared to be hovering, and I embraced him as the
rest of the boys, in unison, shouted "Kiss ass!"
The camp Stuart was all breakfasty and bright and LG (our hostess) was
baking biscuits (which she said she had dreamt of doing the night before).
We carnivalled around the campgrounds frolicking in the "bamboo forest" and
bending over our reflections in the lily padded pond. The boys brought out
the wiffle ball equipment and we all took turns pitching, hitting and
catching. I was partial to the big bright fluorescent pink bat and I hit some
pretty wicked line drives.
I shucked peanuts and drank yerba mate tea on the way to Atlanta. We
listened to "Love" which was given to us by a friend of ours (Denny) in PA.
The Variety Playhouse was just as it had been 3 months ago. Sambo (the
sound man) greeted us with opened arms that waved like his dreadlocks and
was "cool," if you catch my meaning. The biggest of all treats was our
friend Eric "The Bird man" who'd driven up from Mobile Alabama to hang with
us. He showed us all some new dance moves and made us laugh. It was so good
to see him and we recounted "the bubble incident" back in the spring of
Alabama. He was the instigator of the whole bubble event. We were opening
for Christine Lavin who couldn't have been sweeter or funnier.
A friend of Marji's (from the Walden School), Karen, came backstage and
showered us with gifts. She gave Chris S. a teddy bear dressed up as a bee
(for his bee dance) and she gave me a stuffed skunk ('cus I'll be the
recipient of the skunky beer at the end of this tour).
The show was sort of unmemorable. But afterward we all sat down in the
green room, telling jokes:
"Did you hear about the new pirate movie?....It's rated RRRRRRRRR."
and
"Why is 6 scared of 7?....'Cus 7 8 9."
Dancing, impersonating, taking pictures, trying on each other's clothes,
drinking Sierra Nevada, and "making too much noise" said the stage director.
We left at 10ish to go grab Mexican food up the block. The night was warm
and sort of windy. Some crazy, really drunk man, stopped us on the way into
Bridgetown: "I'm trying to get to the next town over and now I now I. I'm not
asking for a ride, I'm not a hitchhiker. I just need 68 cents. I wouldn't
ask if I didn't really need it." Eric threw him a buck and we went in and
ate. We saw the man again as we were coming out and he approached us with
the same spiel: "I'm trying to get to the next town over and now I now I.
I'm not asking for a ride, I'm not a hitchhiker. I just need 68--"
"Hey man, we just gave you a buck an hour ago." Eric said.
"Oh Oh Oh...was that you?" He asked and stumbled off apologizing. His
crazy energy added a new neon to the air and I felt very aware of being a
woman, very conscious of the grip with which I held my purse and, with a
breath, I held myself in. There was something sad and empty and yet
invigorating about Atlanta that night. Something made up from the head held
hands of a mother lighting a cigarette. Something darkened by the lights of
a tattoo parlor still opened like a yawn to the public but not to me.
Something that tasted like the sound of asorbital and marched like wary
children in a candy store full of land mines. I'm not a city person. I'm
just not.
September 19 - 3rd and Lindsly, Nashville, TN
I wake up early and call room service, sneakily, from down in Eric's
room, #1721. I tell Mark, the phone waiter, that I'd like to place an order
for 4 continental breakfasts to be sent and billed to #2303 "that's the room
I'm staying in, I'm just calling from a friends room 'cus I want to surprise
my band," I explain. "However, I want the trays delivered to room #1721, the
room I'm in now, because I would, personally like to deliver the order to
room #2303 myself." Mark seems to understand. I want the trays so that I
can surprise the boy's by putting their bonus checks in with the pastry
assortments. I sit around with "The Birdman," singing the harmonies to radio
hits he churns out on his Taylor guitar. At around 9:00 I call Delucchi who
answers in a welchy* voice. "Hold on," he says "room service is here and
they're insisting I've ordered a continental breakfast."
"Oh man," I say disappointedly now that I've gone through so much trouble
to orchestrate the surprise, "don't send her away, I sent breakfast to you
guys."
"Oh, thanks Sal. But there's only one breakfast here." So I have to
call Mark back and tell him that I need 3 more continental breakfasts
delivered to "#1721 OK?!?!?", I say somewhat condescendingly. Within a 1/2
hour the rolling table with the rest of the order is at our door. Eric and I
trek the cart through the 17th floor hallways to the elevator and get in. I
push floor 23 but apparently you need to have a room key to get onto all
floors above 22 and so instead of going up....we go down....down...down to
the lobby. The doors open and I'm in my night shirt and my rainbow socks and
some business suit is surprised and getting in and the doors are closing and
I'm fumbling with Eric's plastic key trying, in vain, to get to the 23rd
floor. The doors open again on floor 22 where the suit gets out and so do
we. I call from the courtesy phone next to the elevator, up to Delucchi as 6
or 7 well dressed men and women gather to wait for the next available
elevator to the lobby. "We're, stuck on the 22nd floor" I say, leaning
against the breakfast tray. Eric's laughing and people are staring and
Delucchi's coming to fetch us. He laughs as the doors open up to reveal me,
pathetically attired in my ragged pony tail and bare naked legs tipped by my
rainbow socks. "Come on up." He smiles compassionately.
The humidity is deep when we arrive in Nashville. The hot, stagnant, air
laps waves at my bones as though my skin weren't even on. The sky melts
orange marmalade over the already black and brick landscape. We load in,
meet the openers, the bartenders, the chefs and the owners who tell us that
the first 1/2 of our set will be broadcast, live from the club on "lightning
100" and that we should have a good show, as though it were a request, not an
insight. We're just glad that it's the last of the tour and I find myself
1/2 way to Kansas already, in my vague and removed conversations with people
there at the club.
We get food. Brian, who can't, or just won't, eat cheese and specifies
this to the waiter, nonetheless, gets cheese on each and every course of his
meal and frustratedly returns all his orders for their proper preparation
while we scarf. A pretty miss Beth Gilmore comes and shoots some pool with
us. My bestest friend from Boulder, Kate (who now sadly, for me, lives in
Nashville), comes too and lifts our spirits bringing my mind back,
temporarily, from Kansas for some much needed girl chat in the walk in/guitar
closet/green room/hospitality that the venue has given us to change in.
There's a mirror on the wall with some bald bulbs above it and I change into
my newly acquired black pants and maroon top as Kate and I giggle and try on
lipsticks. There hasn't been anywhere to shower since North Carolina and my
hair is taking on a very rat like quality but the boys tell me I look all
right (they're the best) and we go on. There aren't too many people there
but those that are there are there to stay and we launch into the radio show.
"No curse words...NO FUCK, SHIT, ASS..." They tell me...but I forget a
little (oops). Nashville, what a place. It's boots and business and tiny
dogs with bandanas around their necks, and pancake make-up that looks like it
would be painful to take off. It's acoustic music and slide guitars and
shooting stars and smoke filled bars with denim lights left on all night.
And somehow it's all good and all cozy and my back yard.... Familiar,
unpretentious, not lonely, not Alone the way New York is.
"I'm just assuming there's no one in the record business out there in the
audience," I joke, looking into the crowd as 1/2 the room throws their hands
up. "Good," I say "This next one is about the people in the record industry.
It's called Strangest of Strangers." The night goes that way, with me poking
fun at the audience and the audience turning from their crossed arms into
hugs.
At the end of the night we load up. It rains just for load out. I talk
to a really nice guy about possibly doing a PBS special. I talk to a
songwriter about the logistics of touring. I change back into jeans and
sneakers in the mirrored closet. I pick up $25 bucks they give me for doing
the gig. I leave out the back door into the heat.
The air is wet but it's stopped raining for the most part and I stand in
the yellow light. Chris is hanging out of the back of Moby packing up the
last instruments. Brian's leaving in the morning on a plane to do another
gig. Since it's the end of the tour and since he was the last to drink the
skunky beer (the last tour) he needs to be the one to pass the torch. It is
time for me to take the plunge and drink the hot, discusting, cooler rat, Bud
mascot. Tiny flints of rain pass like ferries beneath the yellow door light
and into the shiny tarmac ground. Brian, with Delucchi filming, makes his
honorable speech and asks me to accept the fact that I have made the biggest
blunder this tour out and he's handing me the brown labels bottle. I take
it, open it, smell it and swig. It tastes beer but it also tastes like red
meat (I hate meat) but I drink it like a sport and don't spit it out the way
the rest of the guys did (wimps).
Kate takes us to her new pad where she's set up beds for all of us. The
ground is damp and the wheels on my suitcase stick and track in some mud.
She has a new, tiny, brown and gray puppy of a jack rustle terrier. "Jack."
He licks my feet and we eat Chips Ahoy and Tostitos with salsa, talking about
the horrific state of the music business (a popular topic). No wonder I have
a stomach ache. There's paintings UN-hung and boxes unpacked and we're
trying to persuade Kate to just drive back with us tomorrow but she's set on
making it here in Nashville and we, we are set on making it home, and making
love, and making the road make us listeners, learners and teachers so that we
might make.... Exactly.... And uncompromisingly.... What
we want out of our lives!
Thanks for coming ............
*Soucy (the school teacher that he is) strongly protests my use of
made up words. He says that he is concerned that people reading my road
diaries will pass judgment on my intellect. Frankly, I don't really care
what people think. I believe that the lack of a definitive meaning behind a
word, just like a song or a glance or a poem gives a
reader/listener/onlooker, the opportunity to be creative and construct from
the "meaningless" a meaning of their own. I feel limited enough by the
boundaries of the English language and so I would prefer to paint with
letters then to use them as cookie cutters to shape words into precise
images. But for those who detest the ambiguous, let me offer my
interpretation of the meaning of the word welchy:
welchy: "puckered, sour, impatient, sharp" adj.
Color......................OUTSIDE THE LINES!!!
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